Of quiet joy and deep contented love. But when our harsh and marriage-slighting edict Decreed their separation, and the pair, Reluctantly divorced, were fain to nurse Their unquench'd loves in solitary cages, And forced disunion both of bed and board, Then what a sudden gush of pent-up song Burst from the widower's throat; as tho' the passion, Kindled by nature in his fiery heart,
And finding, till that time, congenial vent
In interchange of amorous sympathies
With his own chosen mate, was now constrain'd To seek some new, unwonted utterance,
Best found in song. Herein, methinks, the bird Is an apt emblem of his wayward donor, Who, for six blissful years, link'd to thy side In loving and most blest companionship, Hath, all that time, lock'd up his vaunted store Of thought poetic, breathing scarce a note Of glad or mournful, light or serious song, Not ode sublime, nor melting elegy, Nor lofty sounding epic. Why was this? Why, but because the wild and passionate feelings, The dim mysterious instincts of his nature, The struggling impulse of the Muse within him, Which, in the days of his unmated youth, Found vent in song and minstrelsy, have flow'd Since thou wert his, in a far better channel, Spending their once tumultuous energy In exercises sweet of chasten'd love
And mild endearments. Around thee have cluster'd The tender thoughts, the rich imaginations, The impulses and instincts, strange and strong, The dreams and visions and wild phantasies, Which else perhaps had wander'd unrestrain'd Through many a devious track of poesy; But, tamed by the strong magic of thy charms, Have all foregone their rovings, and so mingled Their manifold, and oft contending, currents In one deep, tranquil, mighty stream of love. Thus is it that, for very blessedness,
My Muse hath long been silent, long forgotten The venturous flights of her less happy days; But now that, summon'd by imperious duty, And, for a time, foregoing love's sweet solace For truest Friendship's sake, I dwell apart From thee and my sweet children-now once more The old imaginations wake within me; Once more the wild and long forgotten music Of teeming thoughts and fancies floats and thrills Through my admiring brain; once more To walk in that bright land of fairy visions Which is the poet's birthright, his asylum From all the harsh and sorrowful realities Which vex him in this dull and daylight world. Now, like our luckless bird, I seem endow'd With sudden and unwonted power of song; Which, if it may attain such tuneful pitch As erst it reach'd-such as may not disgrace The promise of my earlier utterance,
To whom but thee, my own and only love, Should its first notes be consecrate?
My heart Turns fondly to thine image. O! where art thou? How spending thy brief widowhood? what work Of patient duty or meek love pursuing? Haply thou watchest, with maternal fondness, The slumbers of our children, or in calm And serious converse with those gentle friends, Whose presence half consoles thee for my absence, Pliest thy busy needle, toiling hard
At some great masterpiece of seamstress skill, Trouser or tiny shirt, or infant frock, Or cap constructed to set off the smiles
Of dimpled babyhood; meanwhile, to lighten The evening's toil, one reads, with placid tone, Some volume of grave truth or pleasant fiction, Whereto with serious and attentive ear
Well pleased thou listenest, though at times thy thoughts,
Spite of thyself, wander away to him
Who, on his part in solitude remote,
Is wedding his fond thoughts of thee and home
To these weak, worthless numbers. Peace be with
My gentle love, whate'er thy occupation,
Where'er thy thoughts are fix'd; such peace as thou, By all the arts of wedded tenderness,
Hast breathed into this wild and wayward spirit. For thou hast been to me a guiding star,
My tutelary genius, my good angel, The ministering spirit, by whose hand
The Giver of all good hath lavish'd on me His choicest bounties. Thou canst never know How much I owe thee for whate'er of good Is mingled with this gross and selfish nature; For what I am or may be, and no less
For that which I am not; for without thee, And that sweet exercise of pure affections, Those moods of sober thought and tender musing, That calm fulfilment of unquiet hopes
And fiery longings after happiness,
Which thou alone hast yielded or couldst yield me, I had remain'd the wild impetuous slave
Of uncontroll❜d self will, made weak and wretched By foul perversion of the choicest gifts Shower'd on me by all-bounteous Providence: And if, reclaim'd from wanderings manifold, And made partaker of a better hope And purer aspirations, I now walk,
Though with unsteady and irresolute step,
In the straight path which leads to life eternal, To thee, in part, I owe it. Be all praise
To Him whose grace, by means inscrutable, Hath won us from this world of sense and sin To prospects bright of immortality! Therefore, O gentlest, our connubial love, Hallow'd by strong consent of mutual faith And kindred aspirations, hath assumed A nobler character; for we two walk
Through this life's strange and ever varying road, Not as chance wayfarers, ere long to part
At Death's grim hostel, but as deathless souls Inseparably join'd, and doom'd to share Each other's company through endless changes Of still progressive being; and shall we, Thus strongly bound by chains indissoluble, Heirs of one blessed hope, leagued in pursuit Of one immortal prize-shall we not share Each other's joys and sorrows, hopes and fears, In tenderest sympathy? shall we not bear Each other's burdens, cheer each other's toils, And, in most loving emulation, strive Which shall do most to help the other's welfare In this world and the next? My Margaret, Methinks when I look back on our past years Of wedded life, much seems to be amiss On my part, somewhat haply e'en on thine; For this, whatever may have been my share In our joint list of treasons conjugal, For rash impatience, tempers unsubdued, And much neglect of duties manifold,
Would I now crave forgiveness, and henceforth Resolve, by powerful help of grace divine, To act, more perfectly, the christian husband. Henceforth let us two live, in full discharge Of all those gentle duties which we owe Each to the other, as souls knit together In bonds divine, and emblematical
Of that most holy and mysterious union
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