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Senseless or passionless to be.

O lady! 'tis a dread respect

Of thy majestic intellect;

A sense of awe which makes me bow

Before thy voice, before thy brow,

In reverence for that depth of mind

So richly stored, so disciplined

To the full use of all its powers,

By patient thought and studious hours;

And, more than this, a consciousness,

Too deep for language to express,

Of that most perfect holiness

Which God himself in thee hath wrought

Through years of calm religious thought,

Through study deep and constant prayer,

Through trials dark, through grief and care,

Through contemplation pure and high,

Through many a well won victory

With toil and pain achieved o'er sin,

Enfranchising the depths within

From all dominion but his own,

And slowly building up a throne

In thy pure soul, whereon he may

Himself reign paramount for aye.

'Tis true, elsewhere I may have found
Minds as exact, nor less profound;
And haply some, in many years,
Almost in holiness thy peers;
But never, never found I one
In whom thy wit and wisdom shone

So chasten'd as they are in thee

By fervent Christianity:

Thy reason calm, thy faith intense,

Thy clear and bright intelligence;

And all this with a woman's heart,

Framed perfectly in every part,

And rich in sympathies of earth —

The love that gladdens home and hearth—

The prudence mild—the sense discreet—

The household smile so bright and sweet—

The sweeter tears, so prompt to flow,

Not for thine own but others' woe;

The grace which clothes in fairest dress

All this thine other loveliness;

In voice and look, in mind and heart,

Lady, how beautiful thou art!

And I,—should not this soul of mine Feel as it doth rebuked by thine? This soul, which howsoe'er endued With capabilities of good, With powers of thought, and feeling high, And some bright gleams of phantasy, Did, in the morn of life's brief day, Cast all its better gifts away; Waste half its brightest years on earth In cares and pleasures little worth, Leaving itself untutor'd still, Unpurified from moral ill, Unfurnish'd with the needful store Of earthly or of heavenly lore,

Its headstrong passions unsubdued,

Its carnal spirit unrenew'd,

Each talent unimproved, or given

To things on earth, not things in heaven '.

Myself the slave, the creature still

Of self indulgence and blind will.

0 lady, look not at my heart, For, all benignant as thou art,

Thou couldst not choose but love me less, Couldst thou behold, or know, or guess Its yet too great unworthiness.

And wilt thou love me less? Ah me,
That I should thus conceive of thee!
That such a thought should e'er have birth
As that of losing, here on earth,
Thy friendship, the best boon but one

I yet retain beneath the sun!
No, lady, I can ne'er believe

But that, howe'er thy soul may grieve
Over my many faults, thou still
Wilt yield me, of thine own sweet will,
Affection unreserved, but kind,
And with remembrances entwined
Dear, though most sad, of recent ties,
Close knit by mutual sympathies,
And sorrows, in which thou and I
Wept and consoled alternately.

Forgive me, then, that I so oft
Hear thy dear voice, so gweet and soft,

Provoking me by gentlest force

To intellectual discourse;

Yet sit, as seems, regardless by

In helpless taciturnity.

Think of me as of one whose seat

Should be for ever at thy feet;

As one who fain would learn of then,

In most sincere humility,

Yea, like a meek and docile child,

Religion pure and undefiled;

As one whom God to thee hath given,

A friend to be prepared for Heaven.

September, 1834.

TO MARGARET IN HEAVEN.

i.

I Loved thee not, I knew thee not, I never heard thy name,

Till they told me that thy spirit pure had left its mortal frame:

Thy voice, thy smile, thy pleasant ways can never be to me

The treasures which they are to some of mournful memory:

When I gaze into the throng'd abyss of youth's departed years,

Amidst the forms that meet me there no trace of thee appears;

And if I strive to picture thee to Fancy's inward eye, I see indeed a shadowy dream of beauty flitting by; A thoughtful brow, a look lit up by faith and love

divine, But not the true, the mortal brow, the look that

once was thine.

ii. And shalt thou then depart from earth, and take thy

shining place Among the brightest daughters of our lost and ran

som'd race, Without one passing thought from me, one feeling

of regret Unfelt for other Christian saints whose eyes and

mine ne'er met? Shall I hear of all thy patient pangs, thy meekly

yielded breath,

Yet think of thee as merely one who died a Christian death ?— Undistinguished in my mental eye from all the

sainted dead, Whose souls the spirit cleansed from sin, for-whom

the Saviour bled? And, if we meet hereafter, in the mansions of the

blest, Shall I then by no assured mark discern thee from

the rest?

in. Not so; we two are strangers, we were never

friends on earth;

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