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meal, and makes his bed of straw would most undoubtedly bring you superior to foftest down. The flave into difficulties too dreadful even to has no pleasure above the gratifica- think of? Do I wish you to do any tion of fenfe, and, consequently, has thing that you could not reflect upon no idea of intellectual misery. in your last moments without re.

I will honeftly confess that I have gret? Do I desire you to run any more than once beheld the happiness risk, and by that injure the good of others with a malignant eye, and opinion you have with your father, have fickened at the thought of which, I know, you value above seeing others in prosperity while I life ? No : all of these are the was racked with such cruel sensations. farthest from my desires ; I only I hope the idea presents itself to

entreat you

to tell me the movements every person in adversity; for 1 of your soul, and to consent to an hould tremble to think myself alone intercourse which would be a miticapable of forming it. It is the dif- gation of those pangs, the unhappipolition of a dæmon to give way to ness of our destiny hath ordained us it; and, whatever pangs I may en

to feel. From fuch an intercourse dure in the attempt, this I am de. no evil can accrue; our letters may termined to overcome.-Horrid con- be delivered with our own hands, ception !- Why doft thou haunt me

haunt me and instantly dettroyed when read. thus ? - What 'have I done, that I We have frequent opportunities for Mould be abandoned in this man. such an exchange, without being in ner I have examined my con any danger of a discovery. Conient, science, and have so far fatisfaction, therefore, with a goodness lo natural at least, as to say that I hope and to your heart, to a correspondence, trust I never committed any act so that you muít be convinced is innoblack that I should be constrained to cent, if not deserving of an higher be the object of such a dreadfui per- epithet. secution. O, eternal fountain of Adieu! I wait

your determination kindness! look down with an eye of with no small uneasiness. pity upon me!--{uffer me not to harbour ideas that make me loathe

LETTER VIII. my existence. You have done me the honour to From FRANCES CROMWELL

CHARLES WALLER. confess that you suffer equally with myfelf. Strange! that such a de- WHEN the mind wishes to be claration can supply any joy to a persuaded, it is very easily influenced; person who loves you more than he you will not then be surprised that I has any power to express!--yet, be- bauld return an answer fo foon, or lieve nie, that avowal gave me some comply with what you will: yet I relief.-Good God! how selfith a am free to acknowledge that pity being is mau !--- who would rather hath been rather the cause of my hear that she, for whom he has the present step than any argument you moft tender attachment, is unhappy, have enforced, either of the innothan that the does not return his cence of the transaction, or the safety love.

of it. If you are miserable, communi- As

my

affection for you aspires to cate your cares : it will lighten the the most animated friendship (I burthen of them, and take from your i would I could confine it within the fpirits a load fufficient to oppress the bounds of amity), i fhall talk to you greatest fortitude. Reflect only upon very freely upon two or three parwhat I alk. Do I attempt to per- sages of your last letter, which I did fuade you to a secret marriage, which not expect from the pen of a mari

who

who hath always expressed so perfect consistence it attach reprehenfion. a reverence for the Deity as you have I cannot therefore affect to despise done; and which startled me tlie the prejudice of the world; for, as I more, coming from you, who have am fint into it, I must, if I wish to often declaimed with the greatest avoid malicious insinuation, have energy and beauty of language fome refpet for its sentiments. against a crime the most heinous, You think you would prefer the perhaps, that humanity is capable of condition of a galley-fiave to your committing; and against which, you own. I wonder you Mould make have ofren assured me, the divine such an observation. Do you think, vengeance will be hurled with the because he hath not had the ad. molt dreadful fury. I need scarcely vantage of a fuperior education, he fay, I presume, that the pairage I hath a less exquisite sense of his allude to is that in which you say misfortunes ? To persons incapable that if I were not to content to a of mental misery, corporeal evils correspondence with you; I Mould are the severeit scourge they can be calınly arming your laord with feel: nor are their sufferiogs less than juicide,

those that afflict higher sensibility: The idea of putting an end to And I do not believe that you would existence, to a mind that hath the willingly accept of such a change of imalieft tra e or religion imprinted condition, were it even possible. upon it, is so thocking, that nothing lain afraid it is too common for can excuse the person who indulges adversity to envy the happiness of it for a momeni, and who does not those whom it views content with dilinis; it from his mind with almost their lituatiun. The horror you the velocity of thought. To doubt express at its presenting itself to your is criminal, and to argue vicious, iniagination certainly evinces the upon a subject which must flani gooxiness and purity of your heart; conyi&tion of its impitty at the firit and the resolution you have adopted glance of reason. If you really is prailewortisy, and sucli as, you may hope I fouid transinit my senti depend upon it, will not fail powerments to you, never repeat what fully to intereit the mercy of the fortitude impels to defpite, and re- Creator, always ready to give the Jigion to abluri

most willing aihstance to virtuous I am not better pleased with you inclinations. Peifevere, my dear when you say that to conceal your Charles, (I fhall not entreat your grief is a more painful sensation to pardon for calling you fo; for why you than the thought of self-destruc- ilould I affect an indifference that tion. Would you not rather be my heart is an viter ftranger to :) w.fortunate than impious :--Recol. and you will unquestionably meet két yourself, lit, 11or permit your with success. reason to be hurried away by par- You muft not fpeculate fo deeply fion.

upon every little symptom of a paiI am very willing to admit your fion, of the fincerity of which I ani distinction between inconsistence and convinced from your description of guilt; but you must remember we it; for, alas! I have long recognised live in a world too apt to, judige of every sensation you have mentionevery tiiing by appearance; and it ed, in my own breast; and yet, matters very little whether we be tortured as I am, I would not be any really criminal or not, provided we other person upon earth, if it weie are thought so, with respect to its in my power. This refinenient opinions ; or whether our fault be upon calamity can have no end, nor inconfistence or vice, if to that in- will it answer any good purpofe,-

think it will prove a miti-l.com

but, so far from effecting any thing. I I answered your first letters, and the ferviceable, only plunges you deeper repugnance I felt to connive at your in a thraldom which it should be our ruin. Yes, thank God! I exerted mutual endeavour to break from.- myself to the utmost; I made use of But what am I writing ? Do I really reason, entreaties, and supplication, wish you to escape from it? I dare. to restrain the extremity of your not consult my heart.—You have madness; and it was not until I had accused yourself of being selfish,- lost all hope of your recovery, that I what then am I?–What name does unbofomed myself to you. But this my conduct deserve, that has not attempt to throw all the blaine upon even the advantage of candour to you is cowardly and unjust :-I will excuse it?

therefore dismiss the idea with, inMiserable wretch that I am, who dignation, and conclude with decannot help requesting you to avoid claring that the consequences of our an effort that prudence dictates, and acquaintance are the offspring of the which my reason points out to me as imprudence of both. Yet let me the only means of leffening some add, I shall glory in them, be they part of your anxiety. But, though I what they may, since I have the have desired you not to speculate confolation (and a dear one it is to upon your passion, I cannot help me, I assure you) of reflecting that wishing to hear everything you have with you I fuffer, and for you I fall to say upon the subject.

come to destruction. If you

P.S. If you mean to write to me gation to the canker of distress to before we return to town, let it be unburthen myself to you, I will as shortly as possible ; for my brother Mortly write such a volume to you, Richard will spend a few days in the as must put the reality of my affec- country, previons to his departure tion for you beyond all doubt, and from the kingdom. You well know which would excite pity in the breast that Richard and I are inseparable, of an inquisitor.

when it is in our power to be in the I will allow you have every claim fame house. Indeed I love hun with upon my gratitude, and that your the greatest tenderness; and I fear, conduct towards me has been found- unless you find an opportunity of ed upon the strictest honour and delivering your letter to me before humanity. When a woman has he arrives, you will not be able to owned her partiality for a man, he is do it until we reach London. a

very uncommon creature who will not take advantage of it: neverthe

LETTER IX. less, I will do my prudence the credit

WALLER

From CHARLES to say, if I had not entertained this

FRANCES CROMWELL. opinion of you, I thould not have hazarded such a disclosure. But I HAVE long wanted such a what claim have I to prudence ? — friend as you have shown yourself Have I not been the means, by a

to be,-one to whom I could explain foolish acknowledgment of regard, of all the feelings of my heart, and in betraying one of the noblest creatures whom I could place the most impli. that nature ever made for such I cit confidence,--who would hear all must call you. Might he not, if I have to say with patience, humour such a circumstance had not ac- my complaints, answer me with curred to favour his disorder, have candour, and apply to me the foothbeen able to overcome his folly,--or,

To such a friend, pofleffing the I call you to witness how reluctantly most exalted mind, I hope 1. Ahall VOL. XXVIL

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not forfeit any of my reputation, if I be placed, as to lay one's felfentirely openly confess all the thoughts that open to his animadversions? Before agitate my bosom, and lay bare all we can bring ourselves to such an the transactions of a heart which, I act of confidence, what and how hope, is not altogether vicious, al- great ought to have been the trials of though I have infinite reason to with his worthiness ?-We ought to be it were better than I find it. To convinced of his humanity, candour, you I mean to open all my frailties, honour, and secrecy. It is necessary without concealing the least of them: that such a person should have great -and this is a taik I Mall perform affcction, great eftem, and an with pleature; for (pardon my va interest in our welfare, in order to nity I begin to look upon you as be qualified for so intimate a friend. another selt, with this only dif- nip as this. And even here new ference that I expect to experience, obllacles arise ; for, to discover --you will treat my case without every sentiment to a person whom that partiality to natural to ail of us we love, and who has an equal when we attempt to corrut our. regard for 15,--110t to conceal any felves. The heart is ever ready to thing, but to undraw that curtain find some excuse for its own defiets: which we all spread before pur con. in fact, it is a flatterer we should duct,--at the expente of being pere never place the least confidence in : hap; despited, -and by whom? for it erades all our researchies in a - By thore for whom we feel the twofold manner-In the fi: it place, | moit lively sensations of kindness, it never admits any action to be and who positís an equal good opicoloured with all that glow of guilt nion of us :-to ruin ourlelves, by in which it might be beheld by this communication, in their eyes, another; and, consequentiy, the nay, to be avoided by them,-are first horror of any action being taken thoughts by no means to be reconoft, the mind becomes indifferent ciled to the feelings of any one wlio whether it be guilty or not of the potrelles the smallest spark of sensiact, when it is no longer ftarted by bility. Yet I know not how it the enormity of the degree of crime comes to pals: but to you I can unfold that attaches to it, nor under any every with of my soul, and can uneafy sensations to think itself display, without any dread, the opeinfluenced by vice. Secondly, with rations of my mind, however injurefpect to the being actually guilty rious they may be to my own vanity. of any crime, how many palliatives But I entreat you not to 1pare me: does it throw round our conduct! for in doing ío, you will deceive me, With how many deceptive circum- by making me Tuppose that whichi ffarces does it enfnare the under may be nighly culpable, in different; standing and bafile the judgment and prevent me from correcting How many causes for extenuation what it is my duty to amend. does it intinuate! Ile, therefore, who Would you believe it, that I am withes to judge rightly of his faults, capable of forming the most vilthould by no means trust so partial'a lanous wishes,-nay, such as conjucige, but rather revtal them to science makes me deteit: -Can you tome judicious friend, who, without think it probable that I thould with being inorofe, will centure where he to justify thein to invfelf?-dvd yet may tee occatioi!, and excuse when Such is the tendency of iny re-. the nature of the case will admit of Rections. it. But where to find this friend, is When I mufe upon the crue.ty of the object. - Where is the person in my destiny, in being obliged to be whom tuch implicit confidence can separated from all I hold ocar upon

carth,

earth, - from every thing which is happy flumbers, and a mind at calculated to inspire me with feli- peace. city, and to afford me the means of You see, madam, I have been very contentment,-in a word, from explicit; and by having been so, I the woman I adore,-I often with have become proportionably easier I had been endued with sufficient in iny mind. If I did not ear to hardihood to have prevailed upon take up too much of your time, I her to consent to a private marriage, could fill another meet with my which would at once have put une in expressions of thankfulness for your poffeffion of perfect happiness.- kind permillion to relate to you the Fancy runs away with me at the idea, evils of my fate. and i paint to myself all the delight. ful bliss of an union in which love would have been sweetened, and its GRASVILLE ABBEY; force strengthened by retirement. Loft in the raptures of imagination,

A ROMANCE, I forget that my virtue fuffers by

By G. M. the reverie, until I am roused from this enchanting vision by the admo

(Continued from p. 214.) nitions of honour.

" Found myself, however, greatly

I And what art thou, honour, that

mistaken, when Leonard incompellest us to resign every thing formed ine, the next day but one, formed to make us happy in life, that you had questioned him on the that orderest us, with thy harsh dic- subject. --I now told him, if you tates, to leave the paths of pleasure, made any further inquiries, to say where every object that presents that I had given him the most peli, itself to our view is gratifying to the tive orders to be filent on the topic. sense and captivating to the heart, Lord Millverne had mentioned in to beat thy thorny roads? - What his letter, that, through a fortunate arethe confolations thou affordeft us and unforeseen circumstance, Felix What are the returns thou makest would be again at the same place the for such a sacrifice ?--and by what next day: he also hinted he had authority dost thou act ?

faint hopes of gaining over two of A little reflection tells me that the banditti to his interest. honour is a principle which is the Accordingly, the following day, sesult of human reason and good in the afternoon, the time appointed, ness,--a principle which approaches Leonard set off, and found Felix, as nearer to religion than almost any he expected, with two others. They other branch of morality,—that exchanged notes without being pera those flowery paths which it forces us ceived; but Leonard could observe to abandon were so many snares for the master of the top, and the two our true happiness,--that the thorns men, seemed to wonder, by their we behold growing in the ways of looks, at seeing him juft at the time honour, after a little use, so far of their arrival.--I had ordered him from giving us a'ny pain, soon be- to read the letter before he returned come preferable to the roses of vice, io the abbey, that if it was necessary --that its confolations are the highest to procure any articles more than Sensations of bliss we can be sensible what we had got, he might purchase of, --sensations flowing from a con. them, and bring them with him : sciousness of integrity, -and the re- he did so, and they were carried turns for our giving up ourselves to unopened to my chamber. I was its direction are a quiet conscience, surprised to find a dark lanthorn,

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