"Reason assented:true, my heart denied, -“But thou,' I said, shalt be no more my guide.' “When wed, our toil and trouble, pains and care, "Of means to live procured us humble share; "Five were our sons, and we, though careful, found "Our hopes declining as the year came round: “For I perceived, yet would not soon perceive, "My husband stealing from my view to grieve; "Silent he grew, and when he spoke he sigh❜d, "And surly look'd and peevishly replied: "Pensive by nature, he had gone of late "To those who preach'd of destiny and fate, "Of things fore-doom'd, and of election-grace, "And how in vain we strive to run our race; "That all by works and moral worth we gain "Is to perceive our care and labour vain; "That still the more we pay, our debts the more re main : "That he who feels not the mysterious call, "Lies bound in sin, still grov'ling from the fall. 66 My husband felt not :—our persuasion, prayer, "And our best reason darken'd his despair; "His very nature changed; he now reviled 66 My former conduct, he reproach'd my child: "He talk'd of bastard slips, and cursed his bed, "And from our kindness to concealment fled; "For ever to some evil change inclined, "To every gloomy thought he lent his mind, "Nor rest would give to us, nor rest himself could find ; "His son suspended saw him, long bereft "Of life, nor prospect of revival left. "With him died all our prospects, and once more “I shared th' allotments of the parish poor; 66 They took my children too, and this I know "Was just and lawful, but I felt the blow: 66 My idiot-maid and one unhealthy boy "Were left, a mother's misery and her joy. "Three sons I follow'd to the grave, and one"Oh! can I speak of that unhappy son? "Would all the memory of that time were fled, "And all those horrors, with my child, were dead! "Before the world seduced him, what a grace "And smile of gladness shone upon his face! “Then he had knowledge; finely would he write; 66 Study to him was pleasure and delight ; "Great was his courage, and but few could stand 66 Against the sleight and vigour of his hand; "The maidens loved him ;-when he came to die, "Worst of the bad-they taught him that the laws 66 Made wrong and right; there was no other cause; "That all religion was the trade of priests, “And men, when dead, must perish like the beasts:"And he, so lively and so gay before "Ah! spare a mother—I can tell no more. "Int'rest was made that they should not destroy "The comely form of my deluded boy— “But pardon came not; damp the place and deep "Where he was kept, as they'd a tiger keep; “For he, unhappy! had before them all "Vow'd he'd escape, whatever might befall. "He'd means of dress, and dress'd beyond his means, "And so to see him in such dismal scenes, “I cannot speak it—cannot bear to tell "Slowly they went; he smiled and look'd so smart, "Yet sure he shudder'd when he saw the cart, “And gave a look-until my dying-day, "That look will never from my mind away: "Oft as I sit, and ever in my dreams, "I see that look, and they have heard my screams. "To a small mole a mother's lips have press'd,- "I now can speak again :-my elder boy 66 66 Upon their heavenly Parent to rely. "Alas! I needed such reliance more: My idiot-girl, so simply gay before, "Now wept in pain; some wretch had found a time, 66 Depraved and wicked, for that coward-crime; "I had indeed my doubt, but I suppress'd "The thought that day and night disturb'd my rest; "She and that sick-pale brother-but why strive "To keep the terrors of that time alive? "The hour arrived, the new, th' undreaded pain, "That came with violence and yet came in vain. "I saw her die: her brother too is dead; "Nor own'd such crime-what is it that I dread? "The parish-aid withdrawn, I look'd around, "And in my school a bless'd subsistence found My winter-calm of life: to be of use "Would pleasant thoughts and heavenly hopes produce; "I loved them all; it soothed me to presage "The various trials of their riper age, “Then dwell on mine, and bless the Power who gave "Pains to correct us, and remorse to save. "Yes! these were days of peace, but they are past,— "A trial came, I will believe, a last; "I lost my sight, and my employment gone, "Useless I live, but to the day live on ; “Those eyes, which long the light of heaven enjoy'd, "Were not by pain, by agony destroy'd: 66 My senses fail not all; I speak, I pray ; "By night my rest, my food I take by day; |