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" dove) che fignal of peace to my ,' and foes equally an interest in the
when I meet those radiantsmiles, light had got to the heightof mor' in that enlightened and happy re- tal happiness, the temptations be• gion, that exhilarate all the ce forementioned next succeeded ; o lestial choir, in immortal praifes , and when those had reached their ' and hallelujahs to God and the limited period, I was restored to Lamb. Amen."
" a calm unruffled serenity of fout In a letter to a friend, dated 1'--no sudden starts of paffion, no April 12th, 1792, the fays ;- ' mixture of envy or discord ran“ Dear as your friendship has ever · kled in my breast-all within was • been to me, and highly as I val- harmony and love.--Every breath • ue it, I am constrained to say, I prayer and praise. But with what • have found that friendship in language shall I express the ful! • Deity, which far transcends all meaning of my enlightened soul? • earthly friendships.Many wa • I cannot, I am sensible, I can
ters cannot quench that divine ' not give you an adequate descrip• love, neither can the sea drown tion. Come all ye that fear the • it ; my heart exults with the Lord, and I will tell you what 6 most ardent praise and gratitude. he has done for my soul ; I will 6 How shall I express my thank- afcribe righteoufness to my ma.
ful fong? Yet fince my enlarge..ker, and will now set my fign • ment of soul, I have strange and and seal with a loud-Amen."
powerful temptations from the In another letter, dated the 8th • adversary to distrust the divine of November following, she says, • goodness. But, while I was in “ If you desire to know what is 6 the gall of bitterness, in thedark- 1 the employment of your friend « est moments, the Comfortercame. this day, let me tell you, that . I also call to mind the gracious the richest streams of comfort • promise, I will not leave nor for which have been offered me, on • Jake those who put their trust in the terms of obedience to the Dio me. I will ever praise and bless ' vine will, have made me alas, « his holy name, and not forget too, too soon, trust to my own
his benefits to so unworthy a arm for an enjoyment, which it
worm of the dust. What is is God's prerogative only to be • man o God, that thou art mind • ftow. How short-fighted we • ful of him, or the children of weak mortals are ! That which I (men that thou fhouldest have thought, just now, within my compassion on them.
6 grasp is alas, gone, gone forev• After many days of joy and • er. Had I trusted my God · feasting between God and the no more, and my own strength less, • bler faculties of my soul, I have | ' I never should have drank the « no relish for temporal sustenance. / • dregs of this bitter cup.-May I · The love and praises of the Dea · learn this early lesson, and keep
ity are my delight and my sup ' it ever upon my heart.—The port. I would take the world ways of God are right and just, • around me, and carry them to and if I cannot fathom his wif • heaven in my arms, wishing friends'. dom I must ever trust his word,
and by corre&tion learn humility.'|' be covered with impenetrable · Let me, O my God, never | darkness, were it not for the " again take the shadow, for the · hope that thcy will awake to a o substance.-I am sometimes ready glorious immortality. The hope ( to murmur at the dispensations of ' of the righteous is as an anchor • Providence, in blasting my fond " to the soul both sure and stedfast. • est hopes, at this critical interval. Thus when my God hides his • I often repeat the question, Why face, had I all things within the • is my God thus contending with ' compass of creation to delight • me? Wherewith shall I comebe ' my ears and charm my eyes, his · fore the Lord, and bow myself frowns would blast the whole en• before the Most High God - joyment --Tell me not of joy or • How shall I make an atonement - happiness, there is no such thing « suitable for this offence ? Will ' without my God.-All nature • the offended Deity receive a bro • cannot repair my loss. Heaven • ken penitent heart ? Will he a ' and earth nust strive in vain.
gain receive me into favor? Will But I am perfuaded that neither, • these broken vows of reformation • principalities, nor powers, nor « avail any thing? If the heart is things present, nor things to • not fincere they willavail nothing.' come, shall ever be able to sepa. • Search me, O God, and try, see 1 ' rate me from his love. O death, • if there be any wicked way in • where is thy sting? I shall yet
me. Let this day be employed pass in triumph through thy dark 4 in a proper manner, as a day of dominions. O king of terrors, humiliation, fasting and prayer, through the grace of the Son of
Let this day, the last in the week, • God, my Divine conductor, I • be preparatory to the pleasingem- | can see nothing formidable in thy sployment of spending a fabbath . aspect, but this gentle invitation 6 of rest with thee in thy sanctuary • of my dear Redeemer-Come • below, and by such opportunities unto me and I will give you a • be prepared to spend an eternal • crown of life. Triumph, O my • sabbatifina of rest with thee and foul, and look beyond ten thou• thy chosen ones above.
• sand ages. Amen. Hallelujah." • I am just returned from a fune. The following arderit desires oral scene. How much it softens and breathings of foul after God • the heart to see the mortal re- are prefaced with the words, Un• mains given back to its mother der the hidings of God's face. . ( earth. All that is lovely or de “ If ever penitence flowed from · firable must alike be committed ' a believing heart, surely it is at
to the cold grave, and the noi " this time.--My soul is ready to
fome worm feed sweetly on the die within me, my heart is rea6 clay.cold lips. Let me reflect
a dy to burst, that God should, • little. --If my God is absent, ev • one moment, withdraw his quick• ery thing around me looks dark ening rays.--My heart pants for " and lonesome like this grave.- ' no other good When I consid. • Let me view it on every side. er my ill desert, I am astonished · Has my God hid his face? If 6 that I should ever taste the sweets
grow unacquainted with ease ; joy of reconciliation with so pure a cand peace are empty names God. But to whom buthimcan • sounds without harmony.-So I go ? Nothing on this terrestrial • would the burial of our friends bail can I bring in competition
• with thy love. --Let it reigo pure | Sthenia, on the death of Clara 6 and unsullied in my breast, give ifsa her young companion in feria < me this and this only without al. ousness; with some observations, • loy, and I will freely give up all | supposing the person mentioned in • the earthly pomp, parade, luxu-| the Hymns, was a young woman • rý, noise and hurry, which at- who died in Hartford last spring, • tend on the rich and the great. I thought the particulars relative • My soul with longing melts to her triumphant death, would • away; when, O my soul, when not be unacceptable to hier serious • shall it be, that I shall quit this friends, nor to any true lovers of • tempestuous shore, and launch vital piety. They must operate as • into the ocean of divine love? O a means to quicken the Christian,
who that loves can love enough! and as a powerful evidence to con6 - In that pure state no end of vince the unbelieving, and obfti. 6 praise, this thought gives unut-nate, of the reality of religion ;
terable joy. A thousand, thou- / and also show the kind care, and • sand years rolled away, eterni- indulgent goodness, of the blessed • ty is but just begun ; give me O Saviour to his faithful followers • my God, to drink of these inex. and to the lambs of his flock ; ! haustible streamsof delight. My and the power of his freegrace, how • Saviour enthroned in glory and it will triumph notwithstanding the . • majesty, seraphim and cherubim, opposition of fin and Satan.
• with veiled faces, bowing before Without further preface, I shall • thee-Saints appearing, finners give you the account in the words & trembling to hear their doom- of my friend, who communicated • the forked lightningsdarting from it to me, and submit it to your dis
pole to pole-tremendous thun cretion, praying that all our lives « der shaking the convulsed earth may be like hers, and our deaths
to the centre : 0 thoughtless as pleasant. Yours, &c. • mortals, how will you then quiv
AMICUS. er to see old Satan pushing you • into his yawning gulph ! With • what agonies ! and never to have“ Now set myself to comply • an end! Let me praise thy name, I with your request, and shall • O my God, that thou hast re- furnish you with all the particulars
generated me by thy special grace ; of the death of Clarissa worthy • }et the divine spark shine with of record, with a brief sketch of • lustre in the night of affliction ; | her life.
and, in the hour of death, bear' “ Clarissa, before her conyer• my soul to the realms of everlas- | | fion was of an active, humane and ! ting bliss.”
gentle temper, and possessed of a (To be continued.)
clear mind and good judgment;
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strained by the persuasions of luke- them by death: but that it would warm friends, or open enemies to be much more solemn and awChrist's kingdom. She was very •ful, if when they should again humble, and maintained such a l' meet at the day of judgment, they deep sense of her unworthiness, must be separated for a long eterthat she seldom if ever complaio. nity.” Then she addressed each ed, either of the conduct of her | one personally with great propriefriends, or of the providence of ty and folemnity, accompanying God; but was abundant in giving her words with sighs more expresof thanks. This conduct endear-| live than language. When she had ed her to the serious and godly, ended her addresses to them, the and they were ready to hope for prayed for them with great fitness much comfort, and counsel from and fervency, and at the close, her. But these fond hopes it pleaf with composure, made a mof soed the sovereign of life and death, lemn dedication of herself to God to disappoint. About the middle through Christ-Recovering a litof February last, it pleased God tle from this first most difresling to lay her on a bed of sickness and paroxism of her disorder, she was great distress. From the first of calm, and her mind seemed deeply her fickness, the was resigned as and solemnly impress’d, with the to the event of her condition. things of eternity. From this time, Her greatest fear was, that she she appeared not like an inhabitant should be impatient, and her uni- of this world, and would often form request, that God would intreat her friends, “ to be willing grant her the light of his counte ' and resigned to let her go ; that nance, and give her patience, that this was not her home.” Her she might not complain, under the desire to depart grew very strong, greatest pain of body he should be and she would ak-her friends to pleased to exercise her with.- pray, that the time might foon When her Christian friends came to come. In her greatest pain the visit her, she would call on them would say, “O death where is thy to give thanks to God for his good. Iting.” ness, in preparing her for this bed « Jefus can make a dying bed, of distress, and granting her so Feel soft as downy pillars are," &c. comfortable a state of mind. “ She expressed great concern
“ A little before her death, she
desired to sing an Hymn to the for the famlly, of which she was a member ; when she was asked
praise of God, and said to her by her Minister what he should
friends, “ O how I long to depart pray for, she said “ her desire was,
and be with Christ. Why are his that this providence might be
chariot wheels so long in com• fanctified to the family, that she
ing.” But in these prospects of was willing to be Gck if God
heaven, she was submissive, and "might be glorified, and others
would say she was willing to live benefitted by it.” A few days
longer in this world, if it was before her death, she called the
| God's will, and she might do good, family to her bedside, and told
Yet the tho't of remaining in a them ; " she felt, that she must
linful state, would damp her fpi• soon close her eyes on the things
rits. of time, and that it was indeed a
“ After she had been continued 6 folemın event, to be parted from
| in this state of mind, about five
or fix days, it pleased the Lord, ural abilities, put himself under as we hope, to take her to himself the instruction of an able Phyfsto behold his glory. When the cian, with a view to the practice perceived that she was dying, fne of phyfic. Not long before his was filled with joy and peace in preparatory studies were compleatbelieving. She was deeply sensi. 1 ed, he waited on the Ciergyman, ble of her unworthiness to the last, | who lived at a small distance, and and found the blessedness of that requested an hour or two with him, man to whom the Lord imputes in his study. He foon began to righteousness without works. open his mind, to the minifter, on
Never did a bed of fickness and religious fubjects; and told him, death appear to me like this, these that he found that, on egamiaa. words feemed to be fulfilled : “ Ittion, he did not believe the scripI go and prepare a place for you, tures. Considerable conversation I will come again and receive you passed, and a number of observato myself.” I do not wonder that tions were made in support of the Balaam said (when he had a prof. | truth of divine revelation. The pect of a saint's death in view) young Gentleman appearing very « Let me die the death of the fober, the Minister entertained a righteous, and let my last end be hope, that his unbelief was no like his."
other than what unregenerate men Thrice happy foul! far from the boift
commonly find in their hearts, as rous sea
soon as their consciences areawake. Of human life, from earth and fin set Accordingly, from that time forfree;
ward, he took frequent occasions Far from temptation's darts by Satan
of converfing, privately, with the huri'd, And all the enticements of a treach'rous
young man. But ic foon appearworld!
ed, that he had imbibed the prinLike thee. I'd live till call'd to yield my ciples of infidelity; and, was too breath,
much confirmed in them, to be Like thee I'd triumph in the arnis of shaken by any arguments, that
death, Then like thee rise, clad in my Sa
were used with him. He requestviour's robes,
ed the Minister, however, that it And with the share his people's blest might be kept an entire secret-obabodes!
serving that, should it get abroad, I am yours, &c.
it would ruin him as to the busiSeptember 18, 1890.
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young Lady, both whose parents GENTLEMEN,
were professors of religion. The IF you shall judge, that the fol Minister, sensible of the importlowing Narrative, the truth of ance it was of, that the parents which may be depended on, may should know the character of the be useful to the public, you will be man, to whom their daughter was pleased to insert it in your Maga about to be given, was, yet, for zine.
sometime at a loss what measures
he ought to take. Finally he conTOT many years past, a young cluded to apply to the young Gen1 Gentleman, of superior nat-tleman himself : And, according