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go not empty away. I wish to ,dulations of the pool till it shall have a memorial in the hearts of reach from the west to the east and my brethren, unworthy as I am, I from the east to the west. and less than the least of all the You have ere this seen our Mifmercies I am receiving from him. fionary Journal, and our Magazines I esteem it among those especially have informed you of the great and to be acknowledged that he hath unexpected impression made thro'associated me among a body of the out all Protestant kingdoms, and most faithful and zealous of this you will be refreshed as we have land, where if I fill the lowest been by their correspondence. The place I should think I had not lived increasing vigorous exertions to in vain. My heart is indeed spread the gospel in England & Scotin their work, and I only regret landareno lessremarkable. You will that my ability to serve the glorious have heard how soon the Lord furcause is so disproportionate to my niined us for the equipment of the desires, Hitherto the Lord in- Duff, and with the faithful who have deed hath been graciously pleased we hope ere this reached the place to prosper our efforts beyond our of their destination in the Southmost sanguine expectations, and to ern ocean,* as well as the second demonstrate, to the reproof of our body gone to attempt the Caffre fears and unbelief, that the excel- nation, and penetrate, if the Lord lency of the power is of him and opens the way further into Africa. not of us, and that he can out of | We would not let the present year the mouths of those as feeble as pass without further exertions, and babes and sucklings still perfect his are now deeply employed in prepraise.

paring a large million of thirty perIt revives our inmost souls to see Tons or upwards for the Sandwich the spreading of the sacred flame in Islands and Marquesas, whom Mr. America, and the blessed hope, Crook and the Marquesa youth who that roused from the torpor of ap- came with him, and is now under athy, we are all beginning to feel inoculation will, if the Lord pleasthe value of those souls that the es accompany, he having acquired son of God came down to save by a perfect knowledge of the language. his own most precious blood. The It is with wonder and adoration Lord increase you more and more, we have to acknowledge how the and enable you to lengthen the general favor of the faithful liath cords and strengthen the stakes of supported us, as you will see by the true tabernacle, in which all our annual account ; and every fathat love our Lord Jesus Christ in vor we have asked from our rufincerity may meet to worship him ling powers has been granted with in fpirit and in truth, and with uni- the most perfect readiness. We ted efforts go forth to seek the I have indeed some still refusing to Heathen for his inheritance, and I acknowledge the hand of God. the uttermost parts of the carth Enmity and bigotry will never be for his possession. Between the Allegany mountains and the Co. * From the history of the London lumbia river, which we hope ere Millionary Society, contained in the long to visit, there will be a glorious preceding pages it will be seen that

the Dufi' was captured by a French space to traverse, till we meet, in

to privatcer, news of which was not rewhat point who can tell ! But I trust 'ceived at the time this letter was writthe found will spread like the un. l 'ten.

buried while the feed of the ser- / progress and be animated by your pent remains, but we have the exertions. greatest reason to praise the good l London, June 26, 1799. hand of our God over us for good, who has soprofpered our poor endea- | A letter from a Young Woman to vours, that those are now silent who her Pastor, giving some account supposed if a fox went up it would of the exercises of ber mind. throw down the wall we built.

March 1, 1800. Now few refuse to acknowledge that the thing is of the Lord, and Very dear and worthy Pastor, those of the evangelical clergy whe: A Ccording to your request I refused to associate with us have A will now attempt to give you associated among themselves to con- fome particular account of myself. fine their efforts to Africa and Asia. Bué where shall I begin? Shall I God speed the plough ! If the describe to you the different exerwork be but done they that love cises of mind that I passed through? him will rejoice in it. It will give that would be impossible. For me, dear fir, unfeigned delight to more than three months I almost communicate to my brethren fome despaired of ever seeing the face of tidings from you that you areindi- God in peace ; and was often led vidually exerting yourselves to to think I was made for the very spread the gospel around you, and purpose of being miserable, and that as a Misfionary body making some it was decreed from all eternity vigorous efforts to send out chosen that I should perish forever. Í men, whose zeal and patience may thought myself to be perfectly stua enable them to surmount all the pid and hardened, left entirely to discouragements which they may myself. I saw that I could do meet among the Heathen. | nothing to help myself in the least

The children of God are all one degree that I was in the hands of household. The Atlantic flowing a sovereign God, and that he would between prevents not our united I do just as he pleased with me. hands and hearts from cordially | This I could not endure. It griev. meeting in this work of faith and ed me to think that I could do labor of love. Will you make nothing to save myself, and I often my humble falutations to all that thought that I was dealt hardly among you labor in word and by, that God required more of doctrine, and are willing to spend me than I was able to perform. I and be spent in the service of im- felt opposed to God and holiness. mortal souls. Shall I intreat a My heart rose against the bible. kind remembrance in your prayers, I could find nothing in it but what for a poor finner that is seeking was against me, and for that reathe salvation of his own soul and son I dreaded to read it. Altho' longing for that of others without I was sensible I never could be partiality to the color of their skin happy with such a heart as mine, or the place of their abode, and | yet my aversion to holiness was so your affectionate brother in Chrift, I

great that I rather chose annihilaT. HAWEIS. tion. I found that instead of grow

ing better I grew worfe ; that iny P. S. We wish a more frequent heart was altogether vile, and that correspondence with your society, I did nothing but fin. I thought that we may hear oftener of your that the longer I lived the more fin I should commit, and conse-, insensible and unconcerned. Wha: quently the greater would be my could I do? What could I do? I misery. I longed for death, but would gladly have exchanged mydreaded the fatal consequences. Iself for any creature in the world law nothing in this world for which however wretched. But that was I wished to live- I saw nothing impossible. I wished to die before that I wished to die for, unless it another morning; and I entreated were to get out of this wretched my maker to call me into eternity world. But I could not expect to that very night. During several find a better one. I sometimes days a sovereign God permitted me flattered myself with hopes of to meet temptations too shocking mercy. I had heard that God to relate ; but his power merwas infinitely merciful, and that cifully preserved me. And I he had mercy on thousands as bad began to say to myself, how do I by nature as myself. I thought it know but God may change my might be, that he would have mercy heart on purpose to display his powOn me also and conquer my proud | er and grace? heart. Then again I would blame 1 Thus I continued from Wednesmyself for such daring presumption. | day until the Monday following, Thus I was wretched, but my own in the greatest tumult of mind, intormentor.

agining myself to be the most O can I ever forget the evening wretched and miserable objeét in of Wednesday Feb. 5, 1800 ! | the world. On Monday evening Then it was that I bid adieu to all I felt an unusual calm in my mind, hopes of mercy, and looked for | for which I could not account. nothing but an eternity of woe and Opening my bible I thought there despair. I saw my heart to be was something in it fweet and engacompletely full of pride and all ging that I never saw before. It manner of wickedness. As I was seemed as tho’I could forever read going to a religious meeting, I it with pleasure. -Not that I saw asked myself, For what am I go any thing for myself, but something ing to meeting? And I could glorious in itself. After reading think of nothing but only to gratify for some time I shut my bible and pride and curiosity. I thought began to ponder upon my own vile. myself to be the worst, the vileftness. Then it was that those blesof creatures. I was confident | fed words broke in upon my mind, that there never was fuch a mon- Worthy is the Lamb that was sain. Iter on the earth before, and never | Although I felt that I was the would be again ;-that I was made | most unworthy of beings, I did for no other purpose but to glorify pot see that to stand in the way as the justice of God. I thought that I Christ had satisfied divine justice had grieved the Holy Spirit, and I and " made reconciliation for the was given over to blindness of sins of the people.” I law that mind and hardness of heart, and he had done enough for me, and that for me there remained no for every finner ; that he was able more sacrifice for fin, but fearful and willing to save all who were looking for of judgment and fiery 1 willing to be saved on his terms ; indignation, that would soon de. that if I should perish it would be vour me. I saw others who ap- | for rejecting an offered Saviour. peared to have some fense of eter-Christ appeared to me to be the nal things, but I was like a stone, 1 chief among ten thousands and al

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together lovely. I rejoiced that the sand ! O may I never, never there was so glorious a being at rest short of the rock of ages! God the head of the universe I was alone can guide me in the straight sure that he would do perfectly and narrow path that leads to life. right. I desired that I might have If I could put my trust there, all no will of my own, but that my would be well. My heart has will might be swallowed up in the proved a treacherous friend, and Divine will. I saw that God had how dare I trust it again? Why do an absolute right to do with me just I not rather trust in him who is aas he pleased, and if he should ble to keep me from falling, and to send me to hell I felt as tho' I present me faultless before his . should not complain. I thought I throne with exceeding joy? I am would love him if he should make a poor frail worm of the dust, enme miserable. I was willing that tirely helpless. he should take me and dispose of If left to myself what shall I me just as he saw fit. It seemed do? Or rather, what shall I not to me as tho’I desired nothing so do? I hope I am not altogether much as to live to his glory-to insensible of the danger to which I serve him with my whole heart. am exposed. I am now in a sea I felt as tho' I could with pleasure | fon of life which is attended with bear any thing that he should be | uncommon temptations. My natpleased to lay upon me. The things ural temper is gay and airy, and I of this world appeared less than am not easily turned aside. I live nothing and vanity, when compar- in a flattering and ensnaring world, ed with the pearl of price immense. | surrounded with a thousand temptI desired that this world might have ations. How much do I need no place in my heart--that Jesus the protection of Almighty God! might have full possession thereof. I fear that I shall be left to turn 'I wondered that I could ever def. back again. May God of his inpair when mercy was so free. It finita mercy prevent it! Be pleas. seemed as tho I could tell others ed, kind fir, to admonish and inwhere to look for help. 0 I saw | struct your inexperienced ELIZA. such glory, such love in the suffer- | Forgive me if I have used too much ings of Christ, that I cannot de. freedom. scribe!

Altho' my views were different Memoirs of Mrs SARAH STORRS, from what they ever were before, confort of the Rev. RICHARD I sometimes fear that Satan tranf- Salter STORRS, of Longmead. formed himself into an angel of ow, Massachusetts, who died light on purpose to deceive me. | January 27, 1798, Ætat 33. O he is a subtle adversary! He is À MONG the mysterious dis. now trying every method in his A pensations of Providence, power to undo me, and it seems as is to be numbered the death of tho' my own wicked heart was | pious and useful persons in the combined with him. I beg, dear prime of their days. Human wiffir, that you would deal truly dom would pronounce it best that and plainly with me, and pray such characters should be continued for me that I may not rest short of long on the earth ; but a sovereign Chrift formed in my heart. I am God often teacherh us, by his connow laying a foundation for eter- duż, that all our calculations on nity, and what if it be built upon I this, as well as on other subjects,

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are vain. His way, is in the sea, , conciliating in her manners, she and his path in the great waters, was addresied by all with a confiand his footsteps are not known. dence which was expressive of their Let us submit to his holy will, when respect and love. She mingled, our brightest earthly prospects are with peculiar pleasure, with every darkened, and our faireft hopes colle&tion where the tru' hs and duare destroyed. We are now in a ties of Christianity were the theme state of trial ; and can know but of conversation. With her intilittle. The full revelation of God's mate friends she entered into free righteous judgment is reserved to discourse on the religious exercises the future world. He will, here of her mind ; and while she was after, lay open every part of his far from assuming any pre-eminence, government, before the intelligent she was admired for her rare atcreation, in so clear a manner, as tainments in divine knowledge. will abundantly satisfy his faithful Those who were favored with her servants, and fill their mouths with society cannot forget, with what praise.

satisfaction she appeared to dwell Mrs. Storrs, was daughter of on the perfection and glory of God's Rev. Noah Williston, of New government, and the wonders of Haven. In her childhood, her sovereign grace. Her heart was mother was removed by death. wrapped up in these and like subHer furviving parent did not labor jects. She gloried in the cross of in vain for her immortal lappiness. our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom He cannot be unmindful of his the world was crucified unto her, obligation to render thanks that the and she unto the world. father of mercies, was pleased to High as were her improvements impress instruction and counsel upon in piety, she appeared, both in her her heart in early youth. Atthe age words and actions, to consider her of Fifteen she was hopefully renew attainments as very small. She ed in the spirit of her mind, and faw, and lamented, her want of made a public profession of religion; greater conformity to the laws and of which she was an ornament to the example, of her Lord and master. close of life.-She was married to Were she permitted to speak to us the Rev. Richard Salter Storrs, from that world to which she is gone, O&ober 12th, 1785 ; and was the would forbid a surviving friend the mother of seven children; five to represent her character as faultof whom are still living, . less. She did not seek to discover

She poffefied a mind much above the imperfections of others; her the common level--and penetrated eye was fixed upon her own. She into characters and subjects with was remarkably free from a bitter singular discernment. Few per- and censorious spirit. In her treatfons were so well acquainted with ment of her fellow-Christians, the the doctrines of the gospel ; and words of the Apostle appeared to discovered so correct a taste in judg- be engraven on her heart--" Why ing of the merit of public perform- dost thou judge thy brother ? or ances.

| why doft thou set at nought thy She was able to appear with dig. brother ? for we must all stand benity in any circle ; and, by her fore the judgment- seat of Christ.” modest and amiable behaviour, Mrs. Storrs did not spend her commanded efteem from all ranks time in reading books which copy of people. Easy of access, and from the imagination, rather than

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