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cian, who bled the child, and brought her round. “ In the mean time I had
home to prepare my sermon, for it was not yet finished, and the day was Friday; but I kept seeing that little lifeless face, all orphaned as it was, and the Scripture, •As one whom his mother comforteth,' was so borne in upon my mind, that, although I had previously fixed upon one adapted to a setting forth of the doctrine of election, I was wrought upon to make the other the subject of my discourse : and truly the people wept; almost all but Adeline, who sat in the square pew with her great eyes fixed upon me, and her small lips apart, like one who drinks from the stream of a rock.
" The next day I was resting, as my custom is, after the Sabbath : and in a warm, fair day, I find no better rest than to sit by the open window, and breathe the summer air, and fill my eyes and heart with the innumerable love-tokens that God hath set thickly in Nature. I was, therefore, at my usual place, wrapt in thought, and beholding the labours of a small bird which taught her young to fly, when I felt a light, cold touch, and, turning, saw little Adeline beside me. • Sir,' said she, without any preface, when my papa went away, he left with me a letter, which he said I was to give you if he died.' So far she spoke steadily, but there the small voice quivered and broke down. I took the letter she proffered me, and, breaking the seal, found it a short but touching appeal to me, as the spiritual father of Joseph Frazer, to take his own child under my care, and be as a father to her, inasmuch as his mother was old and feeble, and also to be executor of his will, of which a copy was enclosed. I said this much to the child as shortly as I could, and with her grave voice she replied, • Sir, I should like to be your little girl, if you will preach me some more sermons.' Now I was affected at this answer; not the less that the leaven of pride, which worketh in every man, was fed by even a baby's praise; and, putting on my hat, I walked over to Mrs. Frazer's house and laid the matter before her. She was not, at first, willing to give Adeline up, but at length, after much converse to and fro, she came to my conclusion, that the child would be better in my hands, inasmuch
as she herself could not hope for a long continuance: and, as it was ordered, she died the next summer. I sent for my sister Martha, who was somewhat past marriageable years, but kind and good, to come and keep house for me, and from that time Adeline was as my own child. But I must hasten over a time, for I am too long in telling this.
“In course of years the child grew up, tall and slender, of a very stately carriage, and having that scriptural glory of a woman, long and abundant hair.
“She was still very fervid in her feelings, but reserved and proud, and I fear I had been too tender with her for her good, inasmuch as she thought her own will and pleasure must always be fulfilled, and we all know that is not one of the ordinations of Providence.
“As Adeline came to be a woman, divers youths of my congregation were given to call of a Sabbath night, with red apples for me, and redder cheeks for Adeline, who was scarcely civil to them, and often left them to my conversation, which they seemed not to relish so much as would have been pleasing to human nature.
“But my sainted mother, who was not wanting in the wisdom of this world, was used to say that every man and woman had their time of crying for the moon, and while some knew it to be & burning fire, and others scornfully called it cheese, and if they got it, either burned their fingers, or despised their desire, still all generations must have their turn, and truly, I believed it, when I found that Adeline herself began to have a pining for something which I could not persuade her to specify. The child grew thin and pale, and ceased the singing of psalms at her daily task, and I could not devise what should be done for her; though Martha strongly recommended certain herb teas, which Adeline somewhat unreasonably rebelled against. However, about this time, my attention was a little turned from her, as there was much religious awakening in the place, and among others, whom the deacons singled out as special objects of attention, was one John Henderson, a frequent visitor at our house, and a young man of good parts and kindly feeling, as it seemed, but of a peculiar nature, being easily led into either right or wrong, yet still given to fits of stubbornness,
when he could not be drawn, so to I well remember how like a spirit she speak, with a cart-rope.
looked that day, with her great eyes ** Now Adeline had been a professor raised to a cloud that rested in the of religion for some years, but it did bright sky, her soft black hair twisted not seem to me that she took a right into a crown about her head, and her view of this particular season, for many light dress falling all over the chair, times she refused to go to the prayer- while in her hands, lying between the meetings, even to those which were slight fingers, and by the bluer veins, held with special intentions towards the was clasped a bunch of liverwort blosunconverted; and many times, on my soms. Then I perceived, for the first return, I found her with pale cheeks time, why my child was crying for the and red eyes, evidently from tears. moon, and that John Henderson cared About this time, also, she began to take for the singing and not for the hymns, long, solitary walks, from which she at which I sorrowed. But I sat down returned with her hands full of wild by Ada, and taking the flowers out of flowers, for it was now early spring; her cold hands, began to say that I had but she cared nothing for the flowers, met John Henderson on the road with and would scatter them about the house some such blossoms, at which she looked to fade, without a thought. In the at me even as she did when I told her mean time, the revival progressed, but, about her father, and, seeing that I I lament to say, with no visible change smiled, and yet was not dry-eyed, nor in John Henderson. He had gotten into quite at rest, the tears began, slowly, to one of his stubborn moods of mind, and run over her eye-lashes, and in a few neither heaven nor hell seemed to affect very resolute words she told me that him. The only softening I could per- Mr. Henderson had asked her that ceive in the young man was during the morning to marry him. singing of hymns, which was well done “Now I knew not well what to say, in our meeting-house, for Adeline led but I set myself aside, as far as I could, the choir, and I noticed that, whenever and tried not to remember how sore a that part of the exercises began, John trial it would be to part with Ada, and Henderson would lift up his head, and I reasoned with her calmly about the a strange color and tender expression youth, setting forth, first, that he was seemed to melt the hard lines of his not a professing Christian, and that the face.
Scripture seemed plain to me on that “Somewhere about the latter end of matter, though I would not constrain April, as I was returning from a visit to her conscience if she found it clear in a sick man, I met John coming from a this thing: and, second, that he was a piece of woods, that lay behind my man who held fast to this world's goods, house about a mile, with his hands fuil and was like to be a follower of Mammon of liverwort blossoms. I do not know if he learned not to love better things why this little circumstance gave me in his youth; and, third, that he was a comfort, yet, I have ever observed, that man who had, as one might say, a streak a man who loves the manifestations of of granite in his nature, against which God in his works is more likely to be a feeling person would continually fall led into religion than a brutal or a mere and be hurt, and which no person could business man: so I was desirous of work upon, if once it came in the way speaking to the youth, but when he saw even of right action. To all this Ademe he turned from the straight path, line answered with more reason than I and, like an evil-doer, filed across the supposed a woman could, only that I fields another way. I did not call after noticed, at the end of each answer, she him, for some experience has con- said in a low voice, as if it were the end strained me to think that there is no of all contention, and I love him.' little wisdom in sometimes letting people Whereby, seeing that the thing was alone, but I took my own way home, well past my interference, I gave my and, having put on my cloth shoes to consent with many doubts and fears in ease my feet, and being in somewhat my heart, and, having blessed the child, of a maze of thought, I went up to my I sent her away that I might meditate study, as it seemed, very quietly, for I over this matter. entered at the open door and found "When John came in the evening for Adeline sitting in my arm-chair by the his answer, I was enabled to exhort him window, quite unaware of my nearness. faithfully, and, in his softened state of feeling, he chose to tell me that he had Nelly was dead, and Ada's grief seemed been seeking religion because he feared inexhaustible, while her husband fell I would not give him Adeline unless he into one of his sullen states of mind, were joined to the church, and he could and the affliction passed over them to not make a hypocrite of himself, even no good end, as it seemed. for that, but he had hoped that in the " Soon after this, the Mormon delusion use of means he might be awakened and began to spread rapidly about John converted. At this I was pleased, inas- Henderson's dwelling-place, and in less much as it showed a spirit of truth in than a year after Nelly's death I had a the young man, but I could not avoid letter from Ada, dated at St. Louis, setting before him that self-seeking had which I will read to you, for I have it never led any soul to God, and how in my pocket-book, having retained it cogent a reason he had himself given there since yesterday, when I took it for his want of success in things per- out from the desk to consult a date. taining to his salvation; but as I spoke “It begins :— Dear Uncle,' (I had Ada came in by the other door, and always instructed the child so to call John's eyes began to wander so visibly, me, rather than father, seeing we can that I thought it best to conclude, and have but one father, while we may be I must say he appeared grateful. So I blessed with numerous uncles) •I supwent out of the door, leaving Ada stately pose you will wonder how I came to be at and blushing as a fair rose-tree, notwith- St. Louis, and it is just my being here standing that John Henderson seemed that I write to explain. You know how to fancy she needed his support. my husband felt about Nelly's death,
“As the year went on, and I could not but you cannot know how I felt; for, in conscience let Adeline leave me until even in my very great sorrow, I hoped her lover had some fixed maintenance, all the time, that by her death, John I had many conversations with him, might be led to a love of religion. He (for he also was, an orphan,) and it was was very unhappy, but he would not at length decided that he should buy, show it, only that he took even more with Ada's portion, a goodly farm in tender care of me than before. I have Western New York; and in the ensuing always been his darling and pride; he summer, after a year's engagement, they never let me work, because he said it were to marry. So the summer came; spoiled my hands; but after Nelly I know not exactly what month was died, he was hardly willing I should fixed for their marriage, though I have breathe ; and though he never spoke of the date somewhere, but one thing I her, or seemed to feel her loss, yet I recollect, that the hop-vine over this have heard him whisper her name in his porch was in full bloom, and after I had sleep, and every morning his hair and joined my child and the youth in the pillow were damp with crying; but he bands of wedlock, I went out into the never knew I saw it. After a few porch to see them safe into the carriage months, there came a Mormon preacher that was to take them to the boat, and into our neighborhood, a man of a great there Ada put her arms about my neck, deal of talent and earnestness, and a and kissed me for good-by, leaving a firm believer in the revelation to Joseph hot tear upon my cheek; and a south Smith. At first my husband did not wind at that moment smote the hop-vine take any notice of him, and then he so that its odor of honey and bitterness laughed at him for being a believer in mingled swept across my face, and what seemed like nonsense; but one always afterward this scent made me night he was persuaded to go and hear think of Adeline. After two years had Brother Marvin preach in the schoolpassed away, during which we heard house, and he came home with a very from her often, we heard that she had sober face. I said nothing, but when I little daughter born, and her letters found there was to be a meeting the were full of joy and pride, so that I next night, I asked to go with him, and, trembled for the child's spiritual state; to my surprise, I heard a most powerful but after some three years the little girl and exciting discourse, not wanting in with her mother came to Plainfield, and either sense or feeling, though rather I did not know but Adeline was excusa- poor as to argument; but I was not ble in her joy, for such a fair and bright surprised that John wanted to hear more, child was scarcely ever seen; but the nor that, in the course of a few weeks, next summer came sad news: little he avowed himself a Mormon, and was received publicly into the sect. Dear seeing that she had meant to do right, Uncle, you will be shocked, I know, and although in the deed she had considered you will wonder why I did not use my John Henderson before any thing else, influence over my husband, to keep him which was, as you may perceive, her from this delusion; but you do not besetting sin, and therefore it seemed know how much I have longed and good to me to put, at the end of my prayed for his conversion to a religious epistle, (as I was wont always to offer life; until any religion, even one full of à suitable text of Scripture for her errors, seemed to me better than the meditation,) these words, Little chilhardened and listless state of his mind. dren, keep yourselves from idols!' I did
* I could not but feel, that if he were not hear again from Adeline, till she awakened to a sense of the life to come, had been two months in the Mormon in any way, his own good sense would city, and though she tried her best to lead him right in the end : and there is seem contented and peaceful, in view so much ardor and faith about this of John's new zeal, and his tender strange belief, that I do not regret his care of her, still I could not but think having fallen in with it, for I think the of the hop-blossoms, for I perceived, true burning of Gospel faith will yet be underneath this present sweetness, a kindled by means of this strange fire. little drop of life and pain working In the mean time he is very eager and to some unseen end. That year passfull of zeal for the cause, so much so, ed away and we heard no more, and that thinking it to be his duty, he re- the next also, at which I wondered solved to sell our farm at Oakwood, and much; but, reflecting on the chances of remove to Utah. If any thing could travel across those deserts, and having make me grieve over a change, I believe a surety of Ada's affection for me, to be for John's spiritual good it would did not repine, though I felt some regret be this idea; but no regret or sorrow of that there was such uncertainty of mine shall ever stand in the way of his carriage; nevertheless, I wrote as usual, soul; so I gave as cheerful a consent as that no chance might be lost. I could to the sale, and I only cried a “ The third summer was unusually few tears, over little Nelly's bed, under warm in our parts, and its heats followthe great tulip tree. There my husband ing upon a long, wet spring, caused has put an iron railing, and I have plant- much and grievous sickness, and I was ed a great many sweet-briar vines over obliged to be out at all hours with the the rock; and Mr. Keeney, who bought dying, and at funerals, so that my the farm, has promised that the spot bodily strength was well nigh exhausted, shall be kept free from weeds, so I leave and at haying-time, just as I was cuther in peace. Do write to me, Uncle ting the last swarth on my river meaField. "I feel sure I have done right dow, which is low-lying land, and steambecause it has not been in my own way, ed with hot vapour as I laid it bare to yet sometimes I am almost afraid. "I the sun, I fell forward across my shall be very far away from you, and scythe-snath and fainted. This was from home, and my child; but I am so the beginning of a long course of fever, glad now she is in heaven, nothing can of a typhoid character, during which I trouble her, and I shall not much care was either stupid or delirious most of about myself, if John goes right. the time, and, while I lay sick, there
"Give my love to Aunt Martha, and came a letter to me from Salt Lake city, please write to your dear child. written chiefly by John Henderson, who . ADA HENDERSON.' begged me to come on if it was a pos
sible thing and see his wife, who was "I need not say, my young friend," wasting with a slow consumption, and resumed Parson Field, wiping his spec- much bent upon seeing me. I could tacles, and clearing his voice with a discern that the letter was not willingly vigorous ahem !! " that I could not, in written; it was stiff in speech, though conscience, approve of Adeline's course. writ with a trembling hand. At the • Thou shalt not do evil that good may end of it were a few lines from Ada come,' is a Gospel truth, and cannot be herself; a very impatient and absolute transgressed with good consequences. cry for me, as if she could not die till I I did write to Ada; but, inasmuch as the came. Now Martha had opened this act was done, I said not much concern- letter, as she was forced to by my great ing it, but bade her take courage, illness, and, having read it, asked the doctor if it was well to propound the derson, departed this life on the sixth contents to me, and he said decidedly of July, at my house in the city of that he could not answer for my life if Great Salt Lake. Shortly before dying she did: so Martha, like a considerate she called upon me, in the presence of woman, wrote an answer herself to John two sisters, and one of the Saints, to Henderson (of which she kept a copy deliver into your hands the enclosed for me to see), setting forth that I was packet, and tell you of her death. Acin no state to be moved with such cording to her wish I send the papers tidings; that, however, I should have by mail; and, hoping you may yet be the letter as soon as the doctor saw fit, called to be a partaker in the faith of and sending her love and sympathy to the saints below, I remain your afflicted, Ada, and a recommend that she should yet rejoicing friend, try balm tea.
** John HENDERSON." “ After a long season of suspense, I was graciously uplifted from fever, and “I was really stunned for a moment, enabled to leave my bed for a few hours my young friend, not only with grief daily; and, when I could ride out, which at my own loss, but with pity and surwas only by the latter end of October, prise at the entire deadening, as it apI was given the child's letter, and my peared, of natural affection in the man heart sank within me, for I knew how to whom I had given my daughter; and bitterly she had needed my strength to also my conscience was not free from help her. It was a warm autumn day, offense, for I could not but think that a near to noon, when I read that letter, more fervent and wrestling expostulaand, as I leaned back in my chair, the tion, on the sin of marrying an unbered sunshine came in upon me, and the liever, might have saved Adeline from smell of dead leaves, while upon the sorrow in the flesh. However, I said hop-vine one late blossom, spared by as much as seemed best at the time, the white frosts, and dropping across and upon that reflection I rested mythe window, also put forth its scent, self; for he who adheres to a pure inbringing Adeline, as it were, right back tention, need not repent of his deeds into my arms, and the faintness passed afterward; and the next day, when away from me with some tears, for I my present anguish and weakness had was weak, and a man may not always somewhat abated, I read the manuscript be stronger than his nature. Now, Ada had sent me. when Martha sounded the horn for din- “ It was, doubtless, penned with much ner, and our hired man came in from reluctance, for the child's natural pride the hill lot, where he was sowing was great, and no less weighty subwheat, I saw that he had a letter in his ject than her husband's salvation could hand of great size and thickness; and, have forced her to speak of what she coming into the keeping-room where I wrote for me; and, indeed, I should sat, he said that Squire White bad feel no right to put the confidence into brought it over from the Post-office as your hands, were not my child beyond he came along, thinking I would like to the reach of man's judgment, and did I have it directly. I was rather loth to not feel it a sacred duty to protest, so open the great packet at first, for I be- long as life lasts, against this abominable thought myself it was likely to be some Mormon delusion, and the no less deConsociation proceedings, which were lusive pretext of doing evil that good never otherwise than irksome to me, may come. I cannot read Ada's letter and were now weary to think of, seeing aloud to you, for there is to be a funethe grasshopper had become a burden. ral at two o'clock, which I must attend; I reached my spectacles down from the but I will give you the papers, and you nail, and found the post-mark to be that may sit in my chair and read; only, be of the Mormon city; and with unsteady patient with my bees, if they come too hand I opened the seal, and found with- near you, for they like the hop-blosin several sheets of written letter-paper •soms, and never sting unless you directed to me in Ada's writing, and a strike." short letter from John Henderson, which So saying, Parson Field gave me his ran thus:
leathern chair and the papers, and I sat
down in the hop-crowned porch, to read * · DEAR SIR,
Adeline Henderson's story, with a sort "* • My first wife, Adeline Frazer Hen- of reverence for her that prompted me