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istence-tasteless, vapid, unrefreshing, unstimulating, as, slaking your thirst with distilled water, or eating viands, tasteless in themselves, without salt? Yet this is often a result of middle life, ay, and of a life which a man or woman shall have led without real blame or wickedness. One hope, then, only, must be ever present with us, and should be all-sufficing-but is it? Notwithstanding our prayers, our acknowledgments once-a-week of sin and repentance, do we cling to this hope? If so, it assuredly will save, and atone to us for all the bitter evils of this our everyday world.

Some people say their thorns arise from the sorrows of other people. I cannot say I believe it, unless human nature resembled more (which it does not yet) that Divine Example who, under human guise, did make the griefs of others His own. A few angelic natures, indeed, still wander about this world, who do feel the woes of others most acutely-in fact, as they tell us themselves, even as their own; but then my readers, such feelings of pity, of sympathy, cannot be thorns; they are transmitted into roses of deathless odour, and makes fragrance in the breasts where they arise.

p thorn to bear, despite of care and kind- | does it improve us? What does it make of exlavished on its sufferings? I think so. Next after temper and vice, I believe poverty produces the most sharp and piercing thorns, begh not, perhaps, the most enduring. What tara so lacerating as to owe money? to be in the power of another person? to be rated, abused, seed, and insulted, and to own you have no power of retaliation? If a rightly-thinking perdebtor must also feel guilty. The fallacy of wing Poverty as a goddess incarnate, a state of painless martyrdom, is becomloded. Perhaps, on the other hand, we prone to deem wealth the sole panacea irl evils; but I am inclined to believe that mmpetence and pecuniary ease tend very much more to render people loving and loveable, than that griping, chronic pang of poverty which has suured so many bright temperaments, which has ground and crushed so many aspiring and noble pants, blighting wholesome affections, poisoning domestic peace and tranquillity, and which can never be productive of repose, happiness, or even religious feeling unless there is a certain insensibility to all mundane trials. And when I speak of Poverty, I do not mean even that degree which must feed on bread and water, and wear threadbare clothes, merely existing on the smallest pittance, free from debt or any other care-but of that far more bitter state, in which, to in even bread, the head must be held omers above the waters, even though in momentary peril of sinking for ever. Never to know freedom from the claims of the tar-gatherer, the landlord, the petty debts of which necessity compelled the contraction; as you pay with one hand to know a yet more pressing claim is waiting on the other; turn where you may, if you leave Scylla on your right, grim Charybdis glares on you from the left; to behere that, strive as you may, these claims can Lever be settled but in one way (viz., by paying yourself that debt which will one day be enforced)-this, I say, is the state in which the roses have long ago all perished, but the thorns are evergreen, vigorous, and flourishing. Let Some friendly hand plant them over your grave, a defence to the last shelter earth can afford. Perhaps the keenest thorn of all, is the thought that will force itself-"I might in the cset have prevented this." Hope is a fair angel, but too often she is a delusive syren Devertheless. She sings and chaunts fictitious lays which are never realized, but which you, miserable self-deluder, listen to for truths.

You got into debt first in the hope, amounting to a positive certainty, that you would be able by such and such means to pay all you owed; and those means turned as unrealizable as the fairy-money which changed from gold to dead leaves and dust. But you are again and again deceived by the whisperings of this "Hope," and only after many trials you cast away your idol into outer darkness and believe in her no more. "And the last state of that man is worse than the first," A hopeless life! who can live it? To what does it tend? How

We all remember, I dare say, the thorns which certain misguided and mistaken men and women (more desirous of bread, perhaps, than fame-though a little of that sugar eats very well with your bread and butter) inflicted some months back on the editor of a leading periodical. Poor women, of the class unprotected, who had old mothers and little brothers depending on them-other unfortunates, all committing the deplorable mistake of resting their claims to notice on misfortune, rather than on the literary merits of the articles they offered for insertion. But, to my poor thinking, that gifted editor turned the invading thorns against the very hearts of his persecutors, when he so unhesitatingly exposed to public criticism their appeals. True, no names were afforded; but how the sting must have rankled, as the poor eager victims scanned the last pages of theand saw themselves there held up in the sight of a pseudo pity and sympathy, which carried derision on the very face of its commiseration. Ah! the stereotyped "declined, with thanks" would have been encouragement, compared to the "show-up," which was amusement to the many, but the death of foolish, cherished hopes to the struggling few. Not that I would for a moment insinuate that an author's manuscript should be accepted because the writer happens to want money. No! It is not an unwise impulse, rely on it, which directs the successful man of letters to crush and exterminate rickety bantlings, as they are said to destroy in China a large proportion of the female infants, because they are likely to prove more burthensome than useful. We should else swarm with articles more rapid and inane than those contained in the Lady's Magazine for 1779, now in my hand; trash and twaddle, more nauseating than the ipecacuana draughts the doctor gives for

my cough, brought on by the easterly winds., wife, and five children, could not be dishonoured But let us be merciful to these twaddlers, our great-grandmothers and grandmothers, now resting peacefully where, let us hope, literary pre-eminence is set at nought as the vainest and most futile of all earthly distinctionspioneers, after all, of a pre-eminence which, in this nineteenth century, few women at any rate you in; and the readers of the claim for the pen. They had, too, this advan-have complained more than once of the heavi tage over us of the present generation-the sup-ness of the mental food set before them, food ply of writers was inadequate to the supply of cooked, too, by professional hands, and spiceda readers: else why the insane homage rendered and salted to order. to Fanny Burney, and one or two others, who could write pages, to be read without positively yawning over them?

I say these remembrances alone would be enough to disturb the rest, peace, and digestion of anyone as sensitively alive to human sympa thies as all literary eminent men are so wel known to be. To lift out your hand to a drowne ing wretch might be dangerous, he might pul already

So that, absolutely, if we can make our beds even of the rose leaves, you see we are certain still to get our share of the thorns; and happy are we if, when lacerated beyond bearing, we can cast away the flowers which make them tolerated, and not miss them as necessary to our daily welfare. If you, in possession of competence-nay, affluence, can so ill bear the occasional brambles incident to your human condition, think what it must be to toil in unthankful paths of labour, where there lurks no flower, even in perspective, to brighten the future; nothing but hard, remorseless, unprofitable toil for daily bread--bread which even a breath, a word, a look may at any time deprive you of,

food, the half-loaf, which to so many perishing hundreds is still better than none.

After all, perhaps the thorns which lacerated that tender editorial breast might derive more poignancy from reminiscences of a youthful time, when its possessor sought likewise the favours of editors and publishers. Not long, doubtless, had the genius which penned such keen and vivid pages to wait for recognition, though, indeed, publishers and editors both are often duller-witted about other people's productions than outsiders give them credit for, and even genius is not always to be considered. A man or woman may write on the wrong side of the question, or may now and then hazard re-regretted only as the labour which yields scanty marks unpleasing to literary autocrats. But, however success may at last crown the meridian of life, we must all struggle hard if we would win the bays and laurels, which have thorns just like the roses. Men are not born editors with ever so many thousands per annum, and I am sure that to peruse the nonsense of nine amateur writers out of ten is worth thousands instead of hundreds, being (as any publisher's reader will tell you) enough to harden the heart and rive the brain; so that before the grub became the bright, etherialized butterfly, there may, doubt less, have been times when it was not easy to pay a tailor's bill, or to meet that piece of paper which had been accepted by your dearest friend Jones, and which, for the sake of Jones, his

Think of these things, and be thankful, you, oh prosperous reader, who hold so many roses, if even a few thorns prick your fingers now and then; and, above all, let us not rebel, because they mix with all flowers worth having. A Crown of Thorns consummated on Calvary the glory of the world. As the Divine brow was goaded and pierced with the diadem which had been woven in mocking wrath, that crown read the lesson to future ages, that the thorns should bring out from mankind, amidst the follies, temptations, and trials of the world, the higher virtues of fortitude, endurance, forgiveness, trust, and submission.

MR. REGINALD'S BRINDLED DOG.

BY LOUIS SAND.

It was a regular Christmas night, sharp and cold, with a sprinkling of snow on the ground. I had been with one of the under-keepers to the county town to see the Christmas show of meat, all decked out with garlands and ribbons and holly branches; and as his house was on my way home, I did not refuse to turn in and have a chat with him.

The fire was comfortably tempting; by-andbye another friend or two came in, and the keeper produced a jug of ale, and invited us to be merry. I dont suppose we needed much in

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vitation, as everybody knows there is something exhilarating about the word Christmas; and as for me, the sight of all those goodly shops lighted up and filled with preparations for the season, together with the row of human facessome eager, some jolly, but all expectant-which were looking into them; had raised my spirits wonderfully. It seemed to me a thing to be grateful for, that we should have such a season to look forward to, enjoy, and look back upon; a season when even the melancholy man puts off his melancholy, and the world shuts up its

ager with a bang, smooths out the frown of siness, and rejoices. And merry enough we , all of us, that Christmas night, until, by me strange chance, the conversation turned Mr. Reginald and his brindled dog.

I could not help it. I liked Mr. Reginald self, as everyone did. He was pleasanter to me than his brother, the squire; but the very Dee of his dog sent the merriment out of e. The first time I saw the brindled beast was just here the beginning of the shooting season; bread of admiration, which his master eviexpected, an irrepressible loathing seized I never knew exactly what he was; I bema cross between a bloodhound and a masat least so the keepers told me; but as I bed at him, the slaver hung from his jaws, and is great fiery eyes glared at me, like the eyes of some fierce beast in his native jungle. The being brindled, too, like a tiger, added to this resemblance; and he was so fearfully sarage that none but his master dared to meddle ith him. The keepers had actually refused to e him out with his chain of course; he was never loose.

"He would follow on the trail of a man," and Mr. Reginald," as a hound does on that of afes; and, whoever the man may be, there would not be a chance of escape for him."

A dangerous animal for a pet," I ventured

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Mr. Reginald laughed.

"I run the risk of encountering dangerous society sometimes," he said, carelessly, "and I ke him; he may be useful. Look out!"

I did look out, but too late. They had got the dog on the lawn for a game, which was no Ce play. While Mr. Reginald spoke he had been adjusting the muzzle and lengthening the chain, and he and the squire proceeded to put un boxing gloves, for the purpose of "playing"

with the dog. But Rock-by the way I don't know a better name for a hound than Rock. The roll of ther and the sharp pull up on k are so distinguishable. The dog, I say, had seemed to single me wat from the very first with special animosity, ably reading my dislike in my face; and e his master loosed him, his first bound heght him to my shoulder and me to the

ground.

Being muzzled, however, he could do no more, and I picked myself up and tried to join the general laugh against myself; while the pay between the two brothers and the dog went with a good deal of spirit until Rock grew furious and they desisted. Somehow or other this scene had an odd, importunate trick of forcing itself on my recollection, and especially to-night, as the men went on talking about the dog. Mr. Reginald would as soon part with his right hand, I believe," said the keeper. "You should have seen the fright he got into one day last week, when Rock must needs attack Stalyard's great boar. There was a sharp struggle

I can tell you."

"I thought Mr. Reginald never loosed him," broke in one of the men.

"Not at large. No, he doesn't. There would be wholesale murder, bless you. I'll tell you what he does do, though, and a plucky chap he is. He fastens the dog's chain round his waist, straps a dark lantern to his own side, and with a gun in his hand he roams these woods of his brother's till midnight and after, on the darkest night."

"Poachers," muttered someone, gloomily.

"Well, perhaps. He has that one fault, you see, if it is a fault? Opinions differ; he doesn't deal lightly with a poacher. For all that, I believe it is more for the excitement and enterprise of the thing than any other reason. He does love to dare more than any other fellow would." "The squire isn't so bold."

"The squire's plucky enough; but he's got a wife and little ones, and knows better than to risk his life wilfully. Besides, he blows out on Mr. Reginald for being fool-hardy."

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Suppose the precious beast were loosed?"

Mr. Reginald wouldn't loose him, though. I've heard him say so myself-not so long as he could defend himself without. But if things got desperate, then I pity the fellow that puts himself in Rock's way, that's all. No quarter any more-no leg bail."

"Hush about him!" I said, yawning. "He's an old subject."

"And a sore one, eh? You shouldn't bear malice."

"No more I do. And I've got something to cover that unlucky throw. Here's a Christmasbox from Mr. Reginald himself. Look." I took from my pocket a large hunting knife-a thing I had been long wishing for with a spring in the back to prevent it shutting, except at the wielder's pleasure. It answered my purpose by changing the subject of conversation; and after the price and beauty of it had been sufficiently discussed, I put it up again, and looked at the clock.

"It's early yet," said the keeper. what was that?"

"Hullo

He started up and went to the door. The sound we had heard was certainly like a distant shot; but as it might have been a hundred other things, we persuaded him it was fancy, and after a while he came in shivering.

"It's bitter cold; but I think there'll be more snow. The stars have gone in, and it's cloudy.

"And I must make the best of my way home," I said, getting up.

"Well, good night. You'll go across the tail of the park; it cuts off no end of a round." "Yes, I suppose so."

I didn't want to go across the park, for all that. There was a disagreeable_feeling lurking in a corner of my brain, that I could not ac count for. I was uneasy, and perhaps a little superstitious about this feeling, and I looked wistfully towards the broad white high-road, which, in spite of the round, I would rather have taken. But my friends came out to the

gate with me, talking and laughing in high spirits, and I was ashamed to do as I wanted. My nearest way lay through what we called the Withy Coppice, which ran down to a bed of osiers on the river-a famous place for foxes. The cry of a screech-owl startled me as I entered this coppice. Is there anyone, I wonder, who does not know the cry? I don't mind the hoot, melancholy as it is: indeed one gets rather to like it from use; but the unearthly discord of the screech, coming upon a mind a little excited and not quite free from indefinite alarm, was beyond all sounds hideous. I pressed on as fast as I could. The sky had clouded over, and it was dull enough everywhere; but in the coppice the darkness was oppressive. I had nearly cleared it, when a short, hollow cry struck upon my ear, and involuntarily I stopped to listen-only for a moment, however. It was no owl's hoot or screech; no fox's bark; there was but one animal I could think of, from which such a cry might come. I went on at a steady, quick pace; it came again. My heart gave a single violent leap as the thought suggested itself that the sound was nearer than the Without stopping, I turned my head towards the coppice. I saw the bright flash which a bull's-eye might give forth, but it was far off and in a different direction from the cry. There was no need for indefinite uneasiness now-no time for faltering. However it had happened, I knew that the brindled dog was loose

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and on my trail.

I cannot tell how many wild thoughts rushed through my head at that moment. To runwhich was hopeless, though I kept on doing it; to climb a tree which was as hopeless, since there was no tree near except those in the cop pice, to reach which I must cross the very path of the beast. In the still silent night I already heard, or fancied I heard, faintly the hoarse panting of the dog as he gained upon me. Already my breath began to fail and my limbs to drag. In an instant-it takes longer to write about than it did to happen-I thought of my hunting-knife. It was my only chance, and a desperate one. I got it out and opened it. Turning round upon my own track I dropped on my left knee, planting the right foot firmly in advance, with the right arm drawn back a little to steady it, and holding the knife. Knowing that it was bound to be death to one of us I cannot remember that I thought of anything, except the right planting of myself, to make my desperate chance as good as possible.

I was not a moment too soon. I saw a dark object flying over the snow. I had a sensation of two burning eye-balls; of a gasping, panting sort of growl; of hot breath rolling towards me; then of a shock, against which I knelt on firmly; of a hideous yell, and a warm stream pouring out over my hands and wrists. The brindled dog had made his spring, and my knifeblade was buried in his brisket.

The reaction was instantaneous. A strange feel ing of weakness came over me when I saw the big

ugly body stretched there on the snow, and knew that my enemy was actually dead. pulled out the knife (Mr. Reginald's own gif thus turned against himself), and flung it awa with a shudder. And then I saw, still in th distance, the flash of a bull's eye, whicl had been rapidly advancing. The moon cam from under a cloud too, and the dark shadow of a man moving fast fell over the thinly scattered snow. I thought of this—“ Mr. Regi nald would as soon part with his right hand as that dog."

What would he do? How would he take it? The scene on the lawn came back again as usual. Would he think I had borne malice? And if he did, how could I answer him? I forgot that Mr. Reginald knew as well as I did that a struggle with his dog must be one for life or death. I don't know how it was, or why; but sorrow for his loss, and disappointment came up and choked every other feeling. could care for such a brute, it would be just as hard for him to see it killed as though it had been the gentlest greyhound. He was a long time coming up. I believe there were tears in my eyes as he flashed the light first upon me and then upon the dog.

If he

for the knife you gave me I should have been a "Mr. Reginald," I said, appealingly, "but dead man. How could I help it?"

He did not answer, but kept on looking at the dog. Then he turned and held out a fragment of the chain, pointing to a snapped link.

"There was a flaw in it," he said. "What, you don't think I blame you? Shake hands."

I couldn't do that, for my hands were in no about for my knife, which I hid from him, and state to touch him. I got up and searched then I pointed to the dog. He understood me.

"No," he said, sharply. "I'll see to that. Go home, and be thankful, as I am, that it's no I'll never have another." worse.

When I went to the place next morning, the dog was gone. Mr. Reginald must have buried it himself that night, for no one else knew anything about it.

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