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« Il Palmerino d'Inghilterra,” a romance praised by Cervantes; but did not like it much. He said, he read it for the language, by way of preparation for his Italian expedition. We lay this night at Loughborough.
On Thursday, March 28, we pursued our journey. I mentioned that old Mr. Sheridan complained of the ingratitude of Mr. Wedderburne and General Fraser, who had been much obliged to him when they were young Scotchmen entering upon life in England. Johnson. “ Why, Sir, a man is very apt to complain of the ingratitude of those who have risen far above him. A man when he gets into a higher sphere, into other habits of life, cannot keep up all his former connections. Then, Sir, those who knew him formerly upon a level with themselves, may-think that they ought still to be treated as on a level, which cannot be; and an acquaintance in a former situation may bring out things which it would be very disagreeable to have mentioned before higher company, though, perhaps, every body knows of them.” He placed this subject in a new light to me, and showed, that a man who has risen in the world, must not be condemned too harshly, for being distant to former acquaintance, even though he may have been much obliged to them. It is, no doubt, to be wished, that a proper degree of attention should be shewn by great men to their early friends.
But if either from obtuse insen
sibility to difference of situation, or presumptuous 1776. forwardness, which will not submit even to an ex
Ætat. 67. teriour observance of it, the dignity of high place cannot be preserved, when they are admitted into the company of those raised above the state in which they once were, encroachment must be repelled, and the kinder feelings sacrificed. To one of the very fortunate persons whom I have mentioned, namely, Mr. Wedderburne, now Lord Loughborough, I must do the justice to 'relate, that I have been assured by another early acquaintance of his, old Mr. Macklin, who assisted in improving his pronunciation, that he found him very grateful. Macklin, I suppose, had not pressed upon his elevation with so much eagerness, as the gentleman who complained of him. Dr. Johnson's remark as to the jealousy entertained of our friends who rise far above us, is certainly very just. By this was withered the early friendship between Charles Townshend and Akenside ; and many similar instances might be adduced.
He said, “ It is commonly a weak man, who marries for love." We then talked of marrying women of fortune; and I mentioned a common reinark, that a man may be, upon the whole, richer by marrying a woman with a very small portion, because a woman of fortune will be proportionably expensive ; whereas a woman who brings none will be very moderate in expenses. Johnson. “ Depend upon it, Sir, this is not true. A woman of fortune being used to the handling of money, spends it judiciously: but a woman who gets the command of money for the first time upon her marriage, has such a gust in spending it, that she throws it away with great profusion."
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that they were more faithful to their husbands, and
At Leicester we read in the news paper that Dr.
Having lain at St. Alban's, on Thursday, March 28, we breakfasted the next morning at Barnet. I expressed to him a weakness of mind which I could not help; an uneasy apprehension that my wife and children, who were at a great distance from me, might, perhaps, be ill. “ Sir, (said he,) consider how
would think it in them to be apprehensive 1776. that you are ill.” This sudden turn relieved me for
Ætat. 67. the moment; but I afterwards perceived it to be an ingenious fallacy. I might, to be sure, be satisfied that they had no reason to be apprehensive about me, because I knew that I myself was well : but we might have a mutual anxiety, without the charge of folly ; because each was, in some degree, uncertain as to the condition of the other.
I enjoyed the luxury of our approach to London, that métropolis which we both loved so much, for the high and varied intellectual pleasure which it furt nishes. I experienced immediate happiness while whirled along with such a companion, and said to him, “Sir, you observed one day at General Oglethorpe's, that a man is never happy for the present, but when he is drunk. Will you not add, or when driving rapidly in a post-chaise ?” JOHNSON. “ No, Sir, you are driving rapidly from something, or to something."
Talking of melancholy, he said, “ Some men, and very thinking men too, have not those vexing thoughts. Sir Joshua Reynolds is the same all the
2 [Surely it is no fallacy, but a sound and rational argument. He who is perfectly well, and apprehensive concerning the state of another at a distance from him, knows to a certainty that the fears of that person concerning his health are imaginary and de.. lusive; and hence has a rational ground for supposing that his own apprehensions concerning his absent wife or friend, are equally unfounded. MALONE.]
3 The phrase “ vexịng thoughts,” is, I think, very expressive. It has been familiar to me from my childhood; for it is to be found in the “ Psalms in Metre,” used in the Churches (I believe I should say kirks) of Scotland, Psal. xlii. v.5.
1776. year round. Beauclerk, except when ill and in pain,
is the samne. Ætat. 67.
But I believe most men have them in the degree in which they are capable of having them. If I were in the country, and were distressed by that malady, I would force myself to take a book ; and every time I did it I should find it the easier. Melancholy, indeed, should be diverted by every means but drinking."
We stopped at Messieurs Dillys, booksellers in the Poultry; from whence he hurried away, in a hackney coach, to Mr. Thrale's in the Borough. I called at his house in the evening, having promised to acquaint Mrs. Williams of his safe return ; when, to my surprize, I found him sitting with her at tea, and, as I thought, not in a very good humour : for, it seems, when he had got to Mr. Thrale's, he found the coach was at the door waiting to carry Mrs. and Miss Thrale, and Signor Baretti, their Italian master, to Bath. This was not showing the attention which might have been expected to the “Guide, Philosopher, and Friend ;" the Imlac who had hastened from the country to console a distressed mother, who he understood was very anxious for his return. They had, I found, without ceremony, proceeded on their
Why art thou then cast down, my soul?
" What should discourage thee?
“ Disquieted in me?'
Some allowance must no doubt be made for early prepossession.