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we wish to know to what daring lengths cunning can go, to what pitiable self-delusion credulity can consent, we must watch the proceedings—even while we shrink from them—of a Mercy Merrick and a Julian Gray.
'In taking up my narrative again, where my last letter left off, I must venture to set you right on one point.
'Certain expressions which have escaped your pen suggest to me that you blame Julian Gray as the cause of Lady Janet's regrettable visit to the Refuge, the day after Mercy Merrick had left her house. This is not quite correct. Julian, as you will presently see, has enough to answer for, without being held responsible for errors of judgment in which he has had no share. Lady Janet (as she herself told me) went to the Refuge of her own free-will, to ask Mercy Merrick's pardon for the language which she had used on the previous day. "I passed a night of such misery as no words can describe "—this, I assure you, is what her ladyship really said to me—" thinking over what my vile pride and selfishness and obstinacy had made me say and do. I would have gone down on my knees to beg her pardon if she would have let me. My first happy moment was when I won her consent to come and visit me sometimes at Mablethorpe House."
'You will, I am sure, agree with me that such extravagance as this is to be pitied rather than blamed. How sad to see the decay of the faculties with advancing age! It is a matter of grave anxiety to consider how much longer poor Lady Janet can be trusted to manage her own affairs. I shall take an opportunity of touching on the matter delicately when I next see her lawyer.
'I am straying from my subject. And—is it not strange ?—I am writing to you as confidentially as if we were old friends.
'To return. to Julian Gray. Innocent of instigating nis aunt's first visit to the Refuge, he is guilty of having induced her to go there for the second time, the day after I had despatched my last letter to you. Lady Janet's object on this occasion was neither more nor less than to plead her nephew's cause as humble suitor for the hand of Mercy Merrick. Imagine the descendant of one of the oldest families in England inviting an adventuress in a Refuge to honour a clergyman of the Church of England by becoming his wife! In what times do we live! My dear mother shed tears of shame when she heard of it. How you would love and admire my mother!
'I dined at Mablethorpe House by previous appointment, on the day when Lady Janet returned from her degrading errand.
• "Well!" I said, waiting of course until the servant was out of the room.
'" Well," Lady Janet answered, " Julian was quite right."
'" Quite right in what?"
'" In saying that the earth holds no nobler woman than Mercy Merrick."
'" Has she refused him again?"
'" She has refused him again."
'" Thank God!" I felt it fervently, and I said it fervently. Lady Janet laid down her knife and fork, and fixed one of her fierce looks on me.
'" It may not bs your fault, Horace," she said, " if your nature is incapable of comprehending what is great and generous in other natures higher than yours. But the least you can do is to distrust your own capacity of appreciation. For the future keep your opinions (on questions which you don't understand) modestly to yourself. I have a tenderness for you for your father's sake; and I take the most favourable view of your conduct towards Mercy Merrick. I humanely consider it the conduct of a fool." (Her own words, Miss Roseberry. I assure you once more, her own words.) "But don't trespass too far on my indulgence—don't insinuate again that a woman who is good enough (if she died this night) to go to Heaven, is not good enough to be my nephew's wife."
'I expressed to you my conviction a little way back, that it was doubtful whether poor Lady Janet would be much longer competent to manage her own affairs. Perhaps you thought me hasty, then? What do you think, now?
'It was of course useless to reply seriously to the extraordinary reprimand that I had received. Besides, I was really shocked by a decay of principle which proceeded but too plainly from decay of the mental powers. I made a soothing and respectful reply; and I was favoured in return with some account of what hud really happened at the Refuge. My mother and my sisters were disgusted when I repeated the particulars to them. You will be disgusted too.
'The interesting penitent (expecting Lady Janet's visit) was, of course, discovered in a touching domestic position! She had a foundling baby asleep on her lap; and she was teaching the alphabet to an ugly little vagabond girl whose acquaintance she had first made in the street. Just the sort of artful tableau vivant to impose on an old lady—was it not?
'You will understand what followed, when Lady Janet opened her matrimonial negotiation. Having perfected herself in her part, Mercy Merrick, to do her justice, was not the woman to play it badly. The most magnanimous sentiments flowed from her lips. She declared that her future life was devoted to acts of charity; typified of course by the foundling infant and the ugly little girl. However she might personally suffer, whatever might be the sacrifice of her own feelings—observe how artfully this was put, to insinuate that she was herself in love with him!—she could not accept from Mr. Julian Gray an honour of which she was unworthy. Her gratitude to him and her interest in him alike forbade her to compromise his brilliant future, by consenting to a marriage which would degrade him in the estimation of all his friends. She thanked him (with tears); she thanked Lady Janet (with more tears); but she dare not, in the interests of his honour and his happiness, accept the hand that he offered to her. God bless and comfort him; and God help her to bear with her hard lot
'The object of this contemptible comedy is plain enough to my mind. She is simply holding off (Julian, as you know, is a poor man), until the influence of Lady Janet's persuasion is backed by the opening of Lady Janet's purse. In one word—Settlements! But for the profanity of the woman's language, and the really lamentable credulity of the poor old lady, the whole thing would make a fit subject for a burlesque.
'But the saddest part of the story is still to come.
'In due course of time, the lady's decision was communicated to Julian Gray. He took leave of his senses on the spot. Can you believe it ?—he has resigned his curacy! At a time when the church is thronged every Sunday to hear him preach, this madman shuts the door and walks out of the pulpit. Even Lady Janet was not far enough gone in folly to abet him in this. She remonstrated, like the rest of his friends. Perfectly useless! He had but one answer to everything they could say: "My career is closed." What stuff!
'You will ask, naturally enough, what this perverse man is going to do next. I don't scruple to say that he is bent on committing suicide. Pray do not be alarmed! There is no fear of the pistol, the rope, or the river. Julian is simply courting death—within the limits of the law.
'This is strong language, I know. You shall hear what the facts are, and judge for yourself.
'Having resigned his curacy, his next proceeding was to offer his services, as volunteer, to a new missionary enterprise on the West Coast of Africa. The persons at the head of the Mission proved, most fortunately, to have a proper sense of their duty. Expressing their conviction of the value of Julian's assistance in the most handsome terms, they made it nevertheless